Dance like nobody is watching

Hola! Last night I went dancing, cuba style with my friend.
Or I shouldn't say dancing, we went to a salsa lesson, and tried to dance good. But the problem was that the feet and the brain did not really connected, it took awhile but now at least I know the basic steps of salsa and ruuuumba, I really love that word "ruuumba". haha.

Oh!
And I've also went to get my fortune told this week and that was .. interesting.. I asked aboout my job, about me and about love, of course, I had too! . But I'm not telling. haha annoying? right?

Freak of nature

My hair is a mess, I'm tired and my head is a empty shell of something that once was a wonderful thing. This is what happens when the cold and winter is on it's way.. You stop caring about things and start looking like a ...

Which means I need to:
* Go to my hairdresser
* Get some beauty sleep
* Read a book or something

I'm going to a wedding soon and there is going to be alot of picture taking soo.. I need to look sociable. AAAH!

Don't wanna trade it away .

You know when you hear a song and just get stuck - you know that you've listened to it for the thousand time in your player but still.. you want to hear the lyrics and feel the sound, just one more time. You want to tell everyone about the song but at the same time you don't want them to say they like it because it's yours in a weird way. I'm there.

"And it will take this life of regret
Before my heart learns to forget
Tomorrow will be as it alwasy has been
And i will fall to her again
Before i know i have come to close
I said if right is leaving
I'd rather be wrong.
She is the sunlight, The sun is gone."

Think enough and you won't know anything.

There is this feeling, the feeling of that something just isn't right, something is happening, is going to happen or even has happend.

It's like an anxiety you can't get rid of but you don't understand why it's there. Mine, is usually right.. but do I ever listen, no of course not.
It starts with a thought and often ends with .. stuff and the thought "I should have stayed at home, in bed"

Hmmpfh. It's time for the autum blues again.. the sad music that makes you almost cry, the feeling of being alone, being not good enough and the thought that nobody else understand/cares. I'm there, right now, in this moment.

The song of the moment "Almost lover" by A fine frenzy

I think too much, right? I should just stop my whole thinking progress and.. I don't know ..

Those that take us back are memories

I wish I had a time machine ..You know the usual "go back and fix my mistakes" . or I think it's more of a "go back and do what I didn't do" in my case. Regrets - the thing we all have ..

So which "I didn't do" would I go back and fix? hmpfh! some are not for your reading but some I can share. I wish I had dared to take more chances and in some cases I wish I would have spoked my mind even though those people wouldn't have listened or even cared. It's sad really wishing to have a machine but sometimes that plan seems alot more easier then plan B or K or even plan Y.

Anyways the funniest thing today is from facebook. Yeah I have that !
It's a dare and I thought it was so funny
Unzip Your Fly. If Anyone Points it Out, say "Sorry, I really prefer it this way."

I might be in the basement. I'll go upstairs and check.

Why is it always the same?

You always want what you can't have and then when you have it you don't want it anymore but at the same time you don't wanna anyone else to have either?
It's the whole "You can't eat the cake and have it too" - problem..

I wonder if it's just the plight of the modern person or if it's something in our genes that makes us want the cake and not share it . It's mine, mine, mine!
This problem can turn up in almost every situation from "it's my pen" to "it's my guy/girl even if I'm not in a relationship with him/her"

Why do we do it? why do we torture ourselfs instead of just moving on.. you know "been there, done that" and know move on. The big sentence: Move on ..Step by step, put one foot infront of the other and don't look back . No instead we whine and think of only the sweet, sweet memories because the bad memories, they are the ones we don't remember or don't wanna remember. There is this quote "Don't regret anything that made you smile" - and I agree, because it's not common to really smile these days and when I say really smile, I mean the smile that when you remember it you smile again just because.

But at the same time you can't have what you had and keep moving on too - the world and people doesn't work like that. So my conclusion is:

Even if you miss something or someone it's not good for you to live in the past of all the good memories and never move on and also not to forget the mistakes because if you forget all of that - you haven't learnt your lesson and that is what we do, right?
Learn our life-lessons and keep on walking..

Flying is simple. You just throw yourself at the ground and miss.

So here it is .. my blog!
And here is my first topic..

"A thing that irritate me"
*I like honesty - I like it when people do what they say, You know
"You can talk the talk but can you walk the walk?" So when plans are made, don't come back an hour before, telling me some dumb excuse that we both know is just an excuse like "I have to paint" because my question then is "and you didn't have to do that an hour ago when I called you?" - you can at least be honest? Where's your balls, hun?

"A thing I do that irritates people"
Yeah, I just think that if I'm gonna complain about other people let's show a not so good side of myself too, just to make it fair for everyone. Okey, are you ready? When I get irritated or in a argument with someone on the phone I usually hang up when it get's to tense - A really irritating habit, right? Because then people have to either call me again or text me back.

I don't just wanna be negative today so let's change the feeling in this blog with a abra kadabra ..

"A thing that makes me smile"
I like it when I get suprised by people and with that I don't mean a suprise party or .. I mean a thing like they remember my name-day or just a funny text message when they know I'm not feeling that great. Something that's not necassary but happens anyways - that makes me smile :)


So there .. What about this as my first contribution to this blog? Satisfied or have I left you wanting more .. I hope so .

See you!